God persues us!!

Hey single ladies, but also those of you who are in relationships and of course hello married women of God!
I am trying to get a deeper and deeper relationship with God. It has been an amazing journey.
But like a lot of you there are times when I feel really lonely. I am single and learning to see it as a wonderful gift that God has given me for this season of my life. But still there is sometimes a feeling of loneliness. Because I put myself through some disappointing situations with guys, I have decided that I won’t look at myself as single for the next 5 months. It has been almost 2 weeks since my decision. I feel like I’ve learned already so much.
What is my worth, what kind of woman do I want to be for my future husband, what expectations do I have for my future husband and and and!! It is really challenging to think about all those things. But it is also extremely interesting to think about it.
One thing that I was thinking about was that God wants to persue us. It doesn’t matter if we are single, in a relationship or married. Maybe you are married but there is still a feeling of loneliness and you thought it will go away when you are married. Through that you might’ve put a lot of pressure on your man to fill that feeling. But guess what, God is standing on the door to your heart. Just waiting for you to see all the signs he is giving you. Signs of love, signs of him persuing you. Or you are in a relationship and you just had a big fight with your boyfriend or finance. It feels so good to just go out and get some attention from somebody else, but again God is just waiting in front of the door of your heart. He wants to persue you and give you everything all those guys and wonderful men of God can’t give us. And they will never be able to give that to us!!
Think about that, who has a boyfriend or a fiancé or a husband who just prints a rainbow on the sky, or who just draws a wonderful romantic sunset, or plants you a field of flowers. Isn’t that crazy to think there is somebody who is doing that for us.
I had my eyes wide open in the last few days for all those things. And I started realizing that God knows my heart. He knows I love romance. That is exactly the way he will persue me.
Why don’t we just lay down all those expectations on those men and let us be persued by the God of the universe. If we can do that I think we will have a expression on our face that will make man of God want to persue us more. Because they’ll see us being content. They will see the love we have for God but also for everything he has given us. Our character, our body, our face, our skin color, our eyes. They will see something in us and they will be willing to persue that because they will see a piece of God in us. And I think that’s what it means when we read something like “A woman’s heart has to be so hidden in God that a man has to seek him to find her”!
Let God love on us no matter if we are single, in a relationship, engaged or married or divorced. Let him show us what it means to be persued and I think then we won’t settle anymore for guys who might not be serious. Or guys who might try search the same thing we’ve searched for, for so long. Let us be Proverbs 31 Women!

She is clothed in strength and dignity. She laughs without fear of the future. When she speaks her words are wise and she gives instructions with kindness. She carefully watches everything in her household and suffers nothing from laziness. Her children stand and bless her. Her husband praises her: “There are many virtuous and capable women in the world but you surpass them all. Charm is deceptive and beauty does not last. But a woman who fears the Lord will be greatly praised. Reward her for all she has done. Let her deeds publicly declare her praise. Proverbs 31, 25-31

Thank you all for reading this and letting me share some of my thoughts!

Listen to my voice in the morning, Lord. Each morning I bring my requests to you and wait expectantly. Psalms 5,3 

My future is something I think about a lot. I’m always worried. What should I do? What will happen? Where will I be? Will I have enough?

But why do I worry? I really don’t know. When I look back I can’t remember one situation God didn’t provide or God didn’t lead me through hard times. He was always there, right by my side. And He will always be. It says it so clearly in Matthew 6 that I don’t have worry. That God will take care of me. That He will provide for everything I need. Our lives will not get any longer when we worry. And we cannot change things with worries. So we gotta enjoy every minute God gives us.

What if we exchange every worry into a dream. Wouldn’t it be way more fun to dream with God, instead of not trusting that he has awesome plans with our lives. Lets honor Him and trust that everything is in His control. Dream big and trust that God will make something beautiful out of it.

Passion

I’m in Chile right now. I am leading (with 2 good friends of mine, Jessica and Shaun Hover) a team of 11 students. Our goal here is to reach the Chilean youth through sports and show them the love of Christ. We are supporting also the long term missionaries and help them to build their Base, so they’ll be able to continue the friendships and ministries they have already.

 When we left LA I felt kind of lost. I had to think back and remember my passion. Investing in young women, encourage them and helping them to find their identity in Christ. I have 6 wonderful women with me here and that’s my job for the next 10 weeks. I want to be an example that there is more in a life of a woman than to look good or having a nice body. As I figured that out I felt attacked from the enemy in exactly those things. I felt like I want a better looking body and food was a big issue in my thoughts. I started thinking that I am failing because I thought so much about it instead of being an example. But then my friend Jess reminded me that I am not failing. That I am tempted and that the enemy just wants to destruct, and I won’t let destruction happen. I will live out my passion of encouraging girls in their beauty and identity in Christ. I also will listen to my own words and take it for my own heart.

“That is why I tell you not to worry about everyday life - whether you have enough food and drink, or enough clothes to wear. Isn’t life more than food, and your body more than clothing? Look at the birds. They don’t plant or harvest or store food in barns, for your heavenly Father feeds them. And aren’t you far more valuable to him than they are? Can all your worries add a single moment to your life?

And why worry about your clothing? Look at the lilies of the field and how they grow. They don’t work or make their clothing, yet Solomon in all his glory was not dressed as beautifully as they are. And if God cares so wonderfully for wildflowers that are here today and thrown into the fire tomorrow, he will certainly care for you. Why do you have so little faith? So don’t worry about these things, saying “What will we eat? What will we drink? What will we wear?” These things dominate the thoughts of unbelievers, but your heavenly Father knows all your needs. Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and he will give you everything you need. So don’t worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring its own worries. Today’s  trouble is enough for today.” Matthew 6,25-34

God's and my Ways

God’s ways are higher than my ways

It is so easy to go my own way! It’s so easy just to do whatever I want! It doesn’t take a lot for me to walk out of my door in the morning and just go my own way. I am sure we all have that sometimes. But we got to remember that his ways are so much better. I feel like if I want to go my own way I can hear God calling my name. It’s like he is gently taking my hand and telling me: “I know you would love to go in that direction now, but trust me, my direction will satisfy you way more than you could ever imagine.”

“For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.” Jeremiah 29.11

I am so thankful that God helps me to choose him over and over again. I know I would fail without him. All the things that this world offers me look at some days so tempting, even if I know already the painful outcome.

I feel like I want to take over control in my life but God reminds me that his love for me is so big that he would never give me something that would suck. I want to let go and give him the control. Why should I choose my own way, when God’s ways are so much higher and better!

“My thoughts are nothing like your thoughts,” says the Lord. “And my ways are far beyond anything you could imagine. For just as the heavens are higher than the earth, so my ways are higher than your ways and my thoughts higher than your thoughts.” Isaiah 55.8,9

I decide to choose God’s ways, even if it’s hard sometimes. Even if it takes a lot of hard work, self-control, sacrifices and patience. I’ll do what he wants me to do. I know it deep in my heart that his way is the right way. Because HE is the WAY, the TRUTH and the LIFE right=)=)

His ways are full of excitement, adventure, fun and SATISFACTION!

Isn’t it crazy that we mess up so many times because we feel like the plans we have for our life are much better than the plan God has for us?! So many times I had my own plan and it was painful. So this time I will walk in God’s footsteps. I will trust him and listen to his still small voice. I will choose HIS way because I belong to HIM!!

Grace

Jesus, thank you for your grace. You are so good to me. When I think about the line “if grace is an ocean we are all sinking” in the song “he loves us” I am blown away! That’s exactly how I feel. I feel like I am sinking in your grace and I’ll never get out of that big pool! You love me more than anybody else in this world. You help me if I stumble. You comfort me if I am sad. You party with me when I am in a crazy good mood. You let me rest in your presence when I need a quiet place. But all of that is only because of your grace. We are not worthy of it. But because of your grace and because of your blood we are washed clean, pure, holy and worthy to be in your presence. Sometimes I am covered in sin but the cross you took upon you makes me as white as snow!! Whatever I have done in my past or what I might do in my future I am always pure and holy. I’ll be always worthy to be your friend. I am forever yours, forever in your presence, forever one!  Jesus I love you. Thank you Holy Spirit, that you are talking to me and that you minister to my heart! You work through me and you live in me. If there is sin in me, you just point at it with so much love. But you don’t leave me alone. You walk through it with me!

Thank you Father, that you adopted me into your family. Thank you for calling me beloved. I am so proud to be your child. And I feel so privileged to be your princess, your bride!