BE A PRAYER WARRIOR

So first of all I had my wedding almost 3 weeks ago! It was amazing! We were just overwhelmed with thankfulness and joy! We have such great families and friends we are able to spend life with! So since my wedding has passed I feel like I am able to think and process again of things I have been learning and experiencing!

One of the things are the power of prayer! I know... I am a Christian I shouldn't be surprised that prayer have power but God does teach me right now to fight for families and friends in prayer!
One reason why or how he has taught me that is because of my sister! She is a wonderful woman and mother! She is married! Her husband wasn't a believer(more about that later) She and her husband have 2 boys and an 8 week old babygirl! Their marriage hasn't been easy since the beginning! Last weekend she decided to break up with her husband! It is a really hard time right now! I just got married and so in love with my husband, at the same time I see my sister, her husbad and the kids. I see how they're all doing! And as much as I want to help or tell them what to do(and I don't even know what that would be) I know it is not in my power to restore my sister's Family!

 In this process God has taught me to PRAY! And it is really everything I can do! I can also love on them, but if I want to see miracles I gotta use our biggest weapon! PRAYER!

 The evening before my sister broke up her husband decided to give his life to jesus! PRAISE THE LORD! Still my sister's desicion is the break up! I don't know what God will do but I will keep praying! Cause if I worry about it, it will not restore the family! Thats the reason why I choose to pray!

Also i have friends who don't know God! Or I lead a ministry called Beauty Arise... And sometimes I am trying so hard to figure out how to lead my friends closer to God or how I should be leading the ministry right! And I cant figure it out! And God is teaching me to pray for all of this! I have not the power to do it on my own! But i can pray!

 

So I just want to talk to God more about my worries and let him do the work. Cause HE is the only one who can do it right.

 

If you have difficulties in your life, I want to enourage you to pray. Cause your prayers can move mountains!

Oceans (Where feet may fail)

  

The other day I was driving in my car and listened to this song. Since a while it is probably my favorite song. But that time I was listening to it I had a revelation.

It says in the beginning of the song "You call me out upon the waters, the great unknown, where feet may fail"!
I had tears in my eyes and realized again how wide and deep God's love and grace is. The Lord calls us to do certain things and go certain places with the knowledge that we may fail. And still he calls us to go and to do. He told Peter to get out of the boat and put his feet on the stormy water. He knew Peter will lose his faith and get fearful and eventually sink but STILL he called him to come.
We know that Peter got scared by all the big waves. He put his focus on the waves and off of the eyes of Jesus.

That's the way I feel often times. Espacially in the last half year. It got really hard at work. For a long time I tried to bring positivity into my workplace. I tried to influence my coworkers with encouragements and being different. But I lost track. I was really tired cause my work Schedule changed a lot. The atmosphere at work was really tense and I was litterally overwhelmed by all of it. I also felt unhappy working as a sales woman cause it just didn't fullfill me. Don't get me wrong. I know work will never be my fullfillment but I do believe that God has given me talents and gifts and I want to use them to glorify him and bring him praise.

Unfortunately I got so distracted in figuring out where my place is and what I am supposed to do plus all the stuff that was going on at my work place that I fixed my eyes on the big waves around me instead fixing my eyes on the loving face of Jesus.
Last week I decided to talk to my boss and tell her that I needed a fix schedule again. I wanted to tell her that I was tired that my schedule constantly changes. But on saturday morning while I was praying for the talk I would have with my boss I felt the Lord telling me to share with my boss all that was on my heart.
So I took courage and just told her everything. I started with apologizing for being included in gossip and asking for forgivness. I told her how I was tired of my schedule changing all the time and how my time in Los Angeles (missions work) has changed my life and how I miss that kind of work. I told her that I have talked to my Church and asked for a year of practical training. It would also include a year of biblestudy.
Her answer to all of it was that she is so grateful that I talked to her and that the doors are always open for me as long as she will be boss. That working in a Church and doing bible studies sounds much more like me than being a sales woman and that I should keep her updated on my jobsearch.
It was such a heavenly atmosphere...

The thing is I thought I was way to much into being like the world that I couldn't go back. But with being honest and humble and going up to my boss and confessing my sin, I feel like I got a new start and a new chance. It is never to late to go back and to start new.

It is so awesome that God calls us to places even though we fail, even though we mess  up. He trusts us to take care of his children. I failed but I got up again. I called upon the name of Jesus while I was sinking in the storm around me and he lifted me up and gave me courage to get up again and do better this time.

Don't be afraid of honesty. Cause there is a blessing on being honest and being different from the world around us.
I hope you have a wonderful rest of the week.

You are not alone in this...

Oh my gosh....

I am so sorry for not posting anything for so long!
I have been super busy! Aaaaaaand I finally met my man. My Prince Charming. Maybe that is one of the reasons I haven't posted for this whole time. I guess I was busy getting to know him and being in love!

For all who want to know more about it this part is for you. For the other ones just scroll down a little bit. His name is Matthias Pletscher. He turned 25 in december, that means he is about 1 1/2 years younger than me, which is not a problem at all. We met in church camp last September. I knew his family already a while but not him. I met him,we fell in love and about a month later we started dating. I didn't expect to meet him in churchcamp. I was totally confused having those feelings for him.
There were times in the past that I doubted my man would ever show up. And I didn't believe when people told me "HE will come and God will surpass all your hopes and dreams you have ever had about Mister Right."
But they were so right. I would not want anybody else. Cause THE ONE I have is the biggest gift of God for me and I am deeply thankful for Matthias! We laugh, we cry, we pray and we love life together and we do struggle at times with staying pure. But we get up and figth again and pray that God would use us to bring heaven on earth and to let us be living testimonies for him.
Okay I don't want to talk too much about Matts(that's how he is called) and me. Just one more fact about us. So many people say it is weird to see us. It is almost as if we are the same Person just male and female, or comments like "there was never a couple I met that fits so well than you two", so that is really affirming us and our relationship!

That was it about the amazing update on my life. But for all of you singles out there. I want to tell you a little something. When I was single there was a point when I decided to be happy with life even if I don't have a boyfriend. And I am so glad that I did it. Cause it helped me to deeply fall in love with God. My creator, saviour, friend, counseler, healer!
It has helped me to see my worth in God. It has helped me to love myself when it seemed like no one could ever fall in love with me.
I guess I understand more and more what Paul from the Bible ment when he talked about "if you are single then stay single cause you can full on put your concentration on God"!! Hahah don't get me wrong I don't want to be single again. I am super happy to be a girlfriend and wife to be but these are just my thoughts I had the last few weeks....
I find it really hard to be a good girlfriend and a good daugther of God. But I know God is so patient with me. He teaches me what it means. I am not too far into this process yet cause it just started around 3 weeks ago, that I realized that I needed more time with God again. Cause everything gets really hard and taugh when I don't have those times.
And you know what?? It is true, when you have a boyfriend your insecurities won't just go away. Nope they are still here. I still struggle with feeling to big at times. I struggle even more with being pure. Cause before, you don't just want to give your love to somebody. But know I have someone I truly love and it seems way more tempting to go further than I actually want to in my heart.

So what I am learning right now is, what does it mean to love myself when I have someone next to me? What does it mean to be pure in a relationship? What does it mean to respect and honor my boyfriend? And how do I love my creator first and then the man I want to spend the rest of my life with?

I am not sure if this posts helps anybody. I guess it helps me to process my walk with God. And I defenteley hope there is someone out there who reads this post and feels exactly the same and just needed to know! YOU ARE NOT ALONE IN THIS!

I hope you have a wonderful week! Thank you for taking the time and reading this post!